Thursday, March 15, 2007
Desserts anyone?
This is an oxymoronic entry. The fact that I'm here typing away does not discount the fact that I'm very busy. In fact, I'm here typing away, precisely because of the fact that I'm busy. See, I'm rambling. That's because I'm highly stressed and bogged down by work and the only way to get away from it is to be here, typing away. I always thought I could handle stress fairly well. Looks like I haven't been put to the real test, until now. I don't even know how long my sanity will remain, but I hope I can last till the end of the year at least. That's 9 months away. Shit.
The thing I realised about humans is that they can be so unreliable. They buy you over with their sweet talk and kind gestures, then suddenly, "BAM!", they're gone, leaving behind a big pile of crap to be cleared. Blerdy irresponsible, two-faced, lying pricks. That's why I've learnt never to trust others too much when it comes to work. Always assume that it'll not be done and do it yourself first before you get utterly disappointed.
I don't think I'm a demanding person. Sometimes, I think I'm too kind, which is why I never run out of work to do. I admit that I have high expectations of myself. I strive to be a perfectionist but often, I fall short. No pun intended.
How do I know I'm stressed? My heart is beating faster than usual all day long. I suspect I may die of high blood pressure, if the ton of work doesn't kill me first. How else do I know I'm stressed? I think of work till I fall asleep, I wake up thinking of work, and work the entire day. Thank God I haven't gone to dreaming of work.
Should I say a prayer to make it all go away? Should I ask God to grant me more hands and time to do the work? Should I just be like one of those irresponsible pricks and leave everything alone?
Let's see. "Lord, u there? Pls hear my prayer, whatever my prayer is." Ok, I know what I need to do. Stop typing already and get back to work. As a friend, pls dedicate an hour of sleep to me. Tata.
Posted by Jo at 11:52 PM
