Monday, August 15, 2005
No pain, no gain
The smell of the place makes my stomach flip. The sound of the drills sting my ear drums till they bleed. The thought of IT being in me makes me so sick I wish I could make time go faster, or turn it back so I'd never live to make this mistake. Why must it hurt so much? The pain I've remembered for over ten years is coming back to haunt me. I hated that woman. Why must she inflict so much of pain on me? Have I done her any wrong? I was then, just a sweet young thing.
But this time, she isn't going to hurt me anymore. I won't let her.
Although it hurts me so much, it must be done...again. I know it must. But am I strong enough? Finding the strength is so difficult. Thinking about it makes my heart beat a thousand miles an hour. But I'm not going to chicken out anymore. I must face it.
That's the only way to defeat my fear.
Take care of your teeth people...
Posted by Jo at 5:02 PM
