Tuesday, July 12, 2005
The candles have gone out
This shall be my last entry as a twenty-one year old. *sigh* Turning a year older leaves behind such bitter-sweet memories. It has been a heck of a year. Seems like only yesterday that I celebrated my 21st - Striped-tees party.
A lot has happened since. I have to admit, it wasn't an easy year. If I could sum it up in two word, I guess it was a year of self discovery for me. Began life as a working adult. Learnt the ropes of office dos and don'ts. Got promoted. Became entangled in a web of politics. Felt the strain of service in church. Took over as the president of the youth council. Watched as friends come and go. Reached a crossroad and not know where to turn.
In truth, Hil is right. It has been a trying year. A glimpse of what adulthood brings. A taste of things to come.
I'd be lying if I said that I'm not afraid of what lies ahead. I'm scared shit. But as I thought about it more, I came to a slow but certain submission. Not one of defeat. Nor one of cowardice. But of a conviction that our lives are ours to lead. This sounds passé but really, there is always two sides to a coin. Two ends to a rainbow. It always depends on which road we choose.
So I've decided, that instead of crying over unspilled milk and being the worrier that I am, I ought to start leading and enjoying life in all its fullness. Come what may, as long as we lead each day without regrets, the battle's half won.
As I close the twenty-first chapter of my life, all I have are memories, lessons and stories to tell. Life may not be very fair. Hard knocks and bruised feelings are expected. But at least my life is one that's surrounded by a loving family, an awesome boyfriend =), close buddies, a fulfilling career and...yadda, yadda, yadda...
Yours truly,
Miss Forever Twenty One
Posted by Jo at 11:51 PM
