Monday, June 20, 2005
God speaks
After leaving office at 5.30pm last Friday, I was deciding on where to go because I had arranged to meet Maria for dinner at 7pm. It suddenly occured to me that perhaps I should attend mass since I was early. So I walked to the bus stop and waited. It was 5.50pm and the bus hasn't arrived. So I thought that perhaps I should forget about going to church because I was going to be late. And while thinking of where to spend the next one hour, a car suddenly stopped in front of the bus stop and honked. I looked in and saw my colleague, who then signalled for me to hop in. He gave me a lift to AMK and I eventually ended up early for mass.
It was a very peaceful feeling, having a God-sent chauffeur and knowing that God wants me to be in His presence. I sat through mass, waiting for a sign, an answer...I needed so much to hear His voice telling me that He will lift me from my weariness. Incidentally, the gospel reading for the day was about storing up treasures in heaven. And this phrase kinda struck me hard - "For where your treasure lies, there will your heart be to." I guess I have, in recent times, been so caught up with what the world can offer and I forget about doing God's work. Perhaps that is why I'm feeling so empty and tired, because I've steered away from my purpose and reason for living.
Having said all that, it isn't so easy leading a God-centred life. Each day, we're bombarded with people and products which tell us it's ok to indulge in materialism and wealth. Well, don't get me wrong, I think it is perfectly fine to be rich and materially-satisfied. The problem is, many of us can't handle God and money at the same time. It's usually one or the other. That's where we get caught in the fence...
Although I'm fully aware that God loves me and blah blah blah, I'm still yearning for Him in my heart. Still waiting for Him to fill me and recharge me so that I can be His faithful instrument. I know He will touch me one day...just like the 2,000 year-old seed which scientists have just managed to germinate =)
Posted by Jo at 10:30 AM
