Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Great expectations

Isn't it sad how people expect you to pay your bills even though you're down to your last 20 bucks to feed a family of six? Isn't it sad how friends expect you to be happy and energetic and entertaining even though you just had a super bad day? Isn't it sad how your family expects to be on the top of your priority list even though you have a hundred and one other commitments to attend to? Isn't it sad how bosses expect you to report back to work even though you're still sick?

Yup, that's right. That's what I'll be doing tomorrow. Reporting back to work. Even though my throat still hurts, my nose still leaks and my body still aches. Doctors give a two day MC and everyone expects you to recover within that time frame. And when you don't, you're considered a freak. Whoever said that human beings are supposed to recover from a flu bug within two days anyway?

Staying at home these two days have reminded me of how much I missed this sort of life. Waking up at whatever time I please. Doing whatever I fancy and not having to worry about deadlines, finances and...expectations.

But I guess it is time to snap back into reality. Doing what the 'real' world expects - Being a functional individual of society. Look what has happened to people who aren't valuable to the world. They just fade out and die a slow and painful death...It's a vicious evolutionary cycle.

Mad dashes, over-crowded buses, stress-caused wrinkles and late nights at the office. That's what people expect of you in the 'real' world. The working world. And you just have to jolly-well swallow your last ounce of pride and do whatever the world expects...because if you don't hitch on to the ride, you'll be left behind...all by your own lonely and pathetic self. Except that you are not really alone. You will never be alone...because there is always the MAN. The one who gave you life by having His taken away. The one who sat quietly beside you while you wept about how miserable life is. The one who will never ever leave you behind...not in a million years.

And so, as I hold on to whatever free time I have left, I can only hope for a better tomorrow. A tomorrow filled with heaps of expectations and yet doubled with absolute security...because of my quiet knowing of this Man whom I'm going to spend eternity with.

Posted by Jo at 8:03 PM