Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Confessions
To be frank, the last time I went for confession was about a year ago. To be brutally honest, I sometimes don't see the need to go for confessions, because I know for a fact that our God is a merciful and forgiving God. Simply put, confessions are a waste of time since you know that God is going to forgive you anyway.
And once again, life has a funny way of making me swallow my words one by one...I went for confession today.
Throughout the whole 'lead up', I was just going with the motion. But as I sat in front of the priest and confessed my sins, I literally felt the load being lifted off my shoulders. No joke. It was like a sink being choked up with dozens of fallen hair and all of a sudden, God's mighty hands just came and picked them all up in one split second, and everything is made clean again. I may be exaggerating a little but the feeling was unmistakable - Knowing that God is so forgiving makes me feel so bad. As I knelt down to say my penance, I was filled with so much of peace, like shit man, after all that I've done (although I didn't commit any mortal sins), I'm forgiven just like that.
It has never occurred to me how much my sins have been keeping me distant from God. That instead of being 5 kilometres away from Him, I'm actually 10 kilometres away, and with each sin, I get further and further away. It's funny because I never realized that He was that far away.
Ok, morals of the story are:
1) Sins keep us away from God
2) Confessions, though conventional, are important in our Christian journey
3) No matter how far we are from God, He will never ever leave us
As Lent comes to a close in a week's time, let's try to sin less and love more...after all, WE are the reason for the season.
Posted by Jo at 9:15 PM
