Friday, June 18, 2004
Project freedom
In recent times, I've felt very bound up emotionally. Like someone has taken a very very long rope and wound it round and round me until I can't be myself anymore.
At times, I'm either stressed out or tired or uptight. Sometimes, I can't even remember when I last smiled or laughed. Even when I was out with friends, I couldn't loosen up and be myself. I had no idea why I'm felt that way; neither did I know how to shake off the negative vibes. And no, it's not PMS.
...Well obviously, those restraints are long gone, otherwise, I won't be writing this note in the past tense. In fact, I probably won't even be writing this note at all.
Anyway, I'm here once again to tell you how brilliant God is, in His own mysterious ways. When I went for Charismatic prayer meet last Friday, the moment I stepped into the basement chapel, I felt this overwhelming force that made me feel like crying.
I've heard it somewhere before, that sometimes, the Holy Spirit is trying to prompt & call us, which causes a lot of emotions to be stirred up in us although we may not know why at times...or like Matt Heng says - God is "trying to stir our coffee"...and because He is such a powerful and all-mighty being, the moment He simply holds the 'coffee cup', we're already filled to the brim with His love and peace.
And that was exactly how I felt at the basement chapel, that although the P&W hasn't started yet, I was already Spirit-filled. The feeling of being freed from all the bondages and 'ropes' that were tying me up was simply...it's beyond words.
So yes, thank you God for teaching me how to laugh again, to be myself...and most importantly, be freed from my bondages, whatever they may be.
Posted by Jo at 11:20 AM
