Tuesday, February 03, 2004
Maranatha retreat
The Maranatha retreat took place over the weekend and I'm glad it did. It was a great time for us as we got to know each other better. But the best thing that happened to me was the affirmation that I received from God, through my friends. On the second day of the retreat, I felt a little demoralised because it seemed like everything that was going wrong was my fault. The feeling really sucks. Although I admit to being partially in the wrong, I suddenly felt like all the good that I've done is pointless...Like why am I trying so hard to make things right when I am always the first to be blamed whenever something bad happens?
And as I just trying to hide my disappointment and sadness, God took me and reassured me almost instantly - through my friends, who affirmed me of the work that I'm doing for God, telling me how I'm doing a good job so far. Glory and fame has never been something that I seek, at least not in my conscious mind. And as the affirmations came, tears were collecting in my eyes because it became so real that God was holding me and reassuring me that He is pleased with whatever I'm doing.
Thank you Lord for this experience of Your generosity and love, which You have made so real to me time and again. Thank You for giving me renewed strength to do Your work. Thank You for reminding me of how much You love me. Amen.
Posted by Jo at 11:47 AM
