Monday, January 12, 2004

Have a little faith in Me...

In the past two weeks, I've experienced such a diversity of emotions and feelings. At my lowest points, I've questioned God time and again about why He does certain things in my life...for seemingly bringing me in an endless circle of nothingness and 'wasted time'. I questioned why He would not bless me with everything that I wanted. After all, I did place Him above all things. I did serve Him faithfully.

At the recent D&D, as we welcomed the New Year, I can still recall being so uncertain...so lost...all over again. I was afraid of what this new year would bring. As people were wishing me "Happy New Year", all I could think was "I hope so".

Well, it sucks to feel this way. To doubt Him...especially after proclaiming about how wonderful it is to "walk on water".

But it is at times like these that I 'wake up my ideas'...That this God, my God, who is so much larger than life (literally), knows what He is doing.

Sometimes, I pray so hard that things will work out better for me, and all I could hear God saying was that He understands...But did He really understand? I mean, after all, He is God. How would He know the pains that humans feel?

But today, I saw it all. I saw how it all happened 2000 years ago. I saw how Jesus was despised, look down upon and discriminated. I saw how He would be ever so tempted to doubt God and to question His love. This is when I realised why He understands...

There is a particular song that always calls out to me. Every time I hear this song, it is as if God is talking to me...time and again. And the funny thing is, it always appears at the right moments...when I so needed His assurance.

"When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark,
Have a little faith in me

When the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try,
Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here from a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

When your back's against the wall
Just turn around, you will see
I will catch ya, i will catch your fall
Just have a little faith in me

Well, I've been loving you for such a long, long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me

You see time, time is our friend for you and me
Cause for us there is no end
All you gotta do is have a little faith in me

I said I will hold you up, I will hold you up
Your strength gives me enough
So have a little faith in me

All ya gotta do is have a little faith in me
All ya gotta do is have a little faith in me
A little faith in me"

Posted by Jo at 3:44 PM