Monday, December 22, 2003

Walking on water

This past month has been a blast...Undoubtedly one of the greatest months in my twenty years on planet Earth. Before I dive into sharing with you my experiences, let me provide some background information.

I graduated in June with a Diploma in Mass Communication. Following that, I went to work at Eric's office, doing temporary admin duties. And with what I believe to be Divine intervention, I stopped work after two months. This is where the story begins because the following three months turned out to be a very trying period for me.

Many have urged me to start looking for a new and permanent job, but a little voice within me told me otherwise. Deep inside, this little voice told me that it's not time yet. So, that's what I did. I decided to venture into the unknown, to listen to the voice in my heart. It wasn't easy. No one said it would be. Time after time, people would come along and say it was a bad choice - That I should start looking for a job. I didn't blame them for showing concern. After all, they're the ones with "experience". It came to a point where I felt confused and lost, thinking if I really did make the wrong decision.

But with God's guidance, I managed to hold on, to stick to my decision, to continue trusting Him...even though my whole world seemed to be crashing down on me. By the time I got to the Youth Camp (which took place one week ago)...I was super drained, terribly confused and utterly disappointed with God.

And at this low point of my life, He came.

During the first night of the camp, Eric was telling us that miracles would happen if we let God take charge. (I'm trying to recall what else he said but I can't remember now!). Anyway, while he was speaking, I could feel God's presence so strongly that I almost burst into tears because it felt as though God was speaking to me through Eric, as if the message was solely for me. And that became the turning point of my attitude during the camp. And like they say, the rest is history...

One time, during one of the sessions, He suddenly made me realised the reason why I'm doing what I'm doing...serving Him. The sight of youths praising God so sincerely and openly really renewed my strength in doing His work. The next day, while praying with the rest of the facilitators, God's spirit just filled me so intensely that tears just rolled from my eyes. And the most tangible experience of God came while I was doing a session. I felt something sweep past me, at my back, but when I turned around, there was no one there. And this just reaffirms the fact that God is around and He is truly real. On the last day, while doing a P&W session, I could hear the angels singing along with us. I can still remember their voices, majestic and perfect.

This camp made me realised that God IS worth my time. He has been so generous in blessing me, letting me experience His love and His presence. It was as though He brought me through a dark tunnel and finally showed me the light at the end. It was not until recently that I realised that He has provided me with enough money to last these months and that He has provided me with enough work to do so I won't get bored...

And now, although I'm still jobless, I know I'm walking the right path. I know that He will provide me with the ideal job. It's something that I can't explain to you. This sense of trust. This feeling of walking on water. Something so supernatural, yet tangibly real. All I can say is that Jesus truly is worth it. Really

Posted by Jo at 10:33 AM